5 February 2012, 3:12 am
Hey, So i'm 13. I feel depressed sometimes, I feel alone sometimes, I breakdown crying sometimes. I just lie in my bed listening to depressing music, And sad videos crying. I don't even know WHY I do it. I get some sort of pleasure out of it though. I think of suicide. I picture myself on the news for killing myself. I picture my bullies feeling guilty, Because they were some of the people who caused it. I don't even know why I think about it. Sometimes I just sit somewhere for minutes and minutes staring into the distance.. I picture death. I get this VERY eerie and WEIRD feeling. I HATE it. I HATE the feeling of KNOWING that one day my family, And me are actually going to die, And never see eachother again. Then I get derealization, And depersonalization, And sometimes start crying. I get into a panic, And have to shake my legs and take a deep breath to feel real again. This usually happens at night, But it will happen during the day sometimes. I try cutting because something in me wants to.. But then I always just give myself a tiny tiny little scratch ( That you can't even see ) I don't do this often at all though. Sometimes I just get an urge. I don't know. Any idea's what could be wrong? Thank you!... Read More »
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